Hehe... I've never felt happier in the past week..
Ever since Sunday, there is just something lingering in my heart which I was 'uncomfortable' with. I'm glad its all over!

Had a good talk with him. I felt good. I thank the Holy Spirit for guiding my mouth to say the right things. And for the atmosphere. It was rather relaxed.. which I didn't expect so. :)

It was good. I said what I wanted to. Or most of it. Couldn't remember the rest of the things that was still in my heart. hehe.. I account that to the Holy Spirit. He must have not wanted me to say those things. At least most of what was said was accepted and I'm really glad things would be better from now on. Felt a sense of RELEASE!!!!!!!!!! Hallelujah!!! :D

The moment i've ended my conversation with him, a sense of great joy overwhelmed my heart. I didn't tear or weep like I thought that I would... It was just joy.. I just felt like smiling and screaming and jumping... Of course I didn't. I controlled myself.. Hehehe...

I know God is doing a work in my life, moulding me and changing me for the better.. :)
I really thank God that I'm able to release it once and for all.. and put restitution back into the relationship. Had wanted to emailed him to tell him about it. Cause its not easy to talk to him.... :/

BUT, the situation was really different. Hehe.. maybe with other people's prayers too. I thank God for the people that He has placed in my life. It's simply awesome and I'm really thankful for those people who cared and who prayed along with me.

Hahaha.. seemed like a small matter being blown up like that. But, through it all, it does feel good to know that people cared. And I'm not that useless or not-worthy-to-be-cared about after all.. hehehe..

I'm glad.. that I learnt from this episode and was fast to make the right decision.. :)I reallt thank God....

Hahhaa... I'm so happy now... and I'm looking forward to our first meeting!!!!!!!!
Yeah!!! Oh... one sad thing is that Dr. A R Bernard wont be able to come for this week's conference next week.. So, everything postponed till end of the year.. and He'll be at EXPO!! Hehehe...

Yeah.. So next saturday'll be our first CG and I'm really looking forward to it!! :)

Praise the Lord!!! :D

-RacheL- blogged @ 7/16/2005 12:47:00 PM