Time is ticking and the day is getting nearer.. but i'm still as fat as ever...
Grrrr... i ought to slap my face...

I've always proclaimed aloud..that I'll be the slimmest on my wedding day.. coz I'd want to look good... But but but... somehow.. even the all important day is not a motivation great enough for me to stop eating.. I'm only feeling disappointed abt the fact that I cant lose more weight....
And.... my gastric is working up... Have been getting mild gastric attacks lately... even though I'm still eating... but i guess I'm eating too irregularly... sigh....

I thought I could probably stop eating for about 10days.. so that i can lose some weight.. but its definitely no easy feat.... Sigh.....

I cant really exercise coz of my asthma..and I cant really do anything much...
I can only watch myself continue to put on weight..for the next 8 days...
Urgh.. sianz..... sigh.....

I wanna lose weight!! Tone my flabby arms.. reduce my thunderous thighs....
Shrink my thick waistline!!!

I wanna be slimmer!!! Argh... hard.....
The more i wanna lose weight...the more weight i gain...sianz...

-RacheL- blogged @ 8/23/2008 05:48:00 PM

It was almost literally... we had a good day out at JB to settle some wedding stuffs...
And suddenly on our way back... BB complained he's not feeling well..and feeling very sick...
His head was spinning..and his chest was in pain....
>.<"

And add to that.. he could barely walk... we had to stop a few times...before finally ending up at the usual clinic..but its closed... 9plus i think....
So we walked another 50m to another 24hour clinic...and since the doc did not have any facilities to test blood... he suggested we go to A&E... >.<""""

I rushed back home to put down the barang barang and took my monies and stuffs..and rushed down again.. took a cab to TTSH... hhahaa.. i cant even rem how much is it now.... $15???
thereabouts i think...

Then.. i had to look for a wheelchair....and there was no one to help.. >.<"
I found one..and wheeled BB to the registration area... being my 1st time.. and without any experience.. i didnt know where to go.. pushed him to a side..and wanted to go ask for directions...before a kind male nurse came and asked if he's having chest pain....
So he was wheeled in.... and i was to do the registration for him...

Then he was out of sight.. i was told to sit and wait for him outside...
That few minutes was scary... i wonder what'll happen..and what's happening to him inside...
And a few sms happened to came in at that time...and i informed those people too...
I was scared...and worried....

Then i was called to go in... BB had asked the nurse to ask me in...worrying that i'll be worried outside... then he was sent for an xray....and then disappeared again..and i'm not allowed to go in.. >.<"

Thank God for frens.. but i was really wondering at that point in time.. who can i call and turn to if i really need help... but i couldnt think of anyone who's driving and who's able to come down if needed.... sigh....

And we waited another 2 hours.. before he was told that he can be discharged....
Its not heart attack... good thing because BB is young...and because he's not a smoker....
so... the chances of a heart attack is slim...thats what the doc says.. i happened to be at 7-eleven trying to find ways to get both of our phones charged.. both were FLAT!

When i came back..the doc just left...and BB didnt even ask him..what caused the muscles strained... but i guess its due to stress ba.... he was told to relax more....

Yah.. he's been too tensed for too long.....

Thanks to all who have prayed ...thanks for standing in the gap...
And thank God.. for His protection.. i cant imagine what'll happen....

And this episode... has brought us closer and we learn to treasure each other even more...
Its not easy.... and its scary......

Tonight, we are having our wedding rehearsal...
I pray that everything'll go well.....

Amen..

-RacheL- blogged @ 8/19/2008 11:28:00 AM

Urgh.... BB popped by out of the blue yesterday when i was resting.. was sleeping when he came...
Heee.. so nice rite???

He didnt tell me he's coming..and i was just resting.. so weak and so tired.....
He dragged me out of bed and dragged me to the doctor....
He wanted to go to TTSH.. i told him no need so 夸张 la..
Clinic opposite can liaoz...

But it wasnt opened yet. it was 6plus in the evening.. so we went to the expensive 24hour clinic next to my place....

Doctor's diagnosis: Viral infection..and it triggered by asthma.. hur hur hur....
More medicine..and 2 more days of MC... gggrrr.....

That was my 3rd visit to the doctor in 2 weeks... I had previously gone to see the same clinic on Thursday nite..when I had an asthma attack....before that.. i think i went to see the doctor on.... Monday?? or was it sat?? cant rem...

Grrr... anyway.. the visits had costed me $28+$88+$32 = $148!!

Now u know why i dun like to visit doctor? coz its soo expensive!!!!!!! $148... sigh...
i can do so much with it.. at least get 9 bottles of red wine... sigh.....

I need more money...and yet i'm spending more money.. unnecessarily....

Another sleepy day.. doctor says.. please rest more and drink more water....

okay.. been visiting the toilet soo often... even at night.. i gotta climb out of bed to the toilet...
i really drink alot liaoz la... sigh.....

God.. i wanna be well soooooooonnnn.......

-RacheL- blogged @ 8/13/2008 03:42:00 PM

Was still hyper yesterday and still happy... looking forward to the big day...
but looks like my body is giving up on me....

Was down with asthma... now with blocked nose..and my body is aching like mad...
and its the time of the month... sianz.......

I feel sooo weak..and so sick....
sob sob.....

I wanna be a pretty bride...and a happy bride.... not a sick bride.....

God.. may Your healing power come upon me in Your mighty name!! Amen!

-RacheL- blogged @ 8/12/2008 02:15:00 PM