Hohoho...
In another 19 days, I'm gonna make the BIGGEST purchase of my life...
And.. still short of $4000... God.. You are OUR provider and You will provide!!!

May we be blessed and stay blessed! :D

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/30/2008 08:24:00 PM

Yah.. i think sometimes we just need to rant to give off our emotions..
Supressing it inside too long can kill...
Yeah.. I'm fine liaoz...
Thanks JX, for your concern. :)

Yeah... life still goes on...things get trashed out...

Ya... i've begun my healthy lifestyle....

Monday nite I had prawn and fruit salad from Swensens... NICE!
With a clam chowder bread bowl.. i didnt finish the bread....

Tuesday nite I had Caesar Salad + a few mouth of waffle with ice cream from Gelare.

Wednesday nite, I'm just having a Hot Chocolate from Mac now... may have dinner later..see how...something like maybe...

So i'm still doing not bad huh....

You Jiemeis out there.. better start ur dieting also.. to look nice nice on my Big Day as well....
Hahhahaha... :)

Yeah.... I'm happy! :)

women are emotional creatures...

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/23/2008 06:59:00 PM

Happy? Excited?
It's getting nearer..
And I'm having mixed feelings at this very moment..
On one hand, I'm really excited and looking forward, on the other, I just wonder.
I guess I still have a choice. But I hope I don't have to make that choice.

Do you know how I feel?
Time and again, I'm already lethargic.
I'm already sick of it.

And you can only say, I'm not being understanding....
Am I really not?
What more can I do?

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/23/2008 02:02:00 AM

What do you do when you hear a person say he/she'll change, but you never see it happening?
What do you do when the thing you dread keeps happening time and again?
And you can do nothing about it, or get scolded or put down?

Have you ever wondered how the action of one can greatly affect the mood of another?
A person may come home excited and happy to share about something, but is greeted with a sullen or sulky face when he reaches home.
All the happiness and excitement just simply vanishes into thin air.
No more smile, no more happiness, no more excitement.
All simply of a black face that greeted it..

How long can one person tolerate another?
I wonder if I really know what I am getting myself into..
Am I prepared for what is to come?
Sometimes, I'm already at a loss, and it scares me to think of the worst.
I do not want to see it happening, but ur stubborness simply will tear it apart..
Can I still trust what you say?
Can I still believe in you?
Can I have joy in you?
Will I be happy with you?

I don't know. Because whenever things happen, it happens.
Why do i have to suffer this?
Why do i have to tolerate this?
Am I made to go through all these?
What have I done to deserve being treated this way?
Have I no life of my own that I can call my own?

I'm lost.... who am I?

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/23/2008 01:55:00 AM

Who's the one that takes control of your life, your time?
Who has the say to what you want to do?
When you are all that is, you can do anything and everything that you want to.
Nobody cares, and nobody bothers about what you do.
You can do what you like, when you like it and how you want it.

Why has life become such a controlled routine?
You feel that you no longer own yourself, but someone else.
You can't do what you like, when you like it.
It has always got to be compromised with someone else's timing and preference.
Its no longer I who live, but you who live 'in' me..

Is that the case? Is that the way it should be?
Does it have to do with priorities?
Different people have different priorities, and different people work differently.
What's important to you, may not be important to me.
And vice versa.
Why do you have to decide what's important for me?
Why do you have to judge if I'm doing something correctly?

Why has it become that you are always right, and I wrong?

Who's leading me?

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/23/2008 01:50:00 AM

Wow... after a long while.... finally.... I'm alone at home...
Good and bad la... good coz no one would nag at me when I'm facing the PC... be it Mummy or BB.. hahaha...
But feels a little weird... Hehhee...
I'm sooooooooo tired.....physically...
Today's duty not that fantastic as well... bleh...
More to learn of... and I'm not a 老教 at my position anyway... so still got room for improvement and things to learn... it'll be bery sad if i'm already complacent in my position.. which I'm not.. Still not exactly sure of everything... still can run without much mistakes and hicupps but still not THAT sure...
So.. learnt something new today...
Good thing! :)

Its only through mistakes made that we learn... if I never make the mistakes, I'll never know what went wrong... and its a good thing... Hee... :)
Yup... hopefully will get to do the same position again the next duty.. and make it better! :)
Yeah! :)

Alright... I'm going to take a nap.. yes! nap on a Sunday.. super nice.. hehehe... and then I'm going to a wake tonite... CG member's grandfather... yah...
And the irony is BB is attending a wedding tonite... Bleah....

Looking forward to my own! Hehehe! :P

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/20/2008 04:35:00 PM

Pst just shared a message on the Power of Faith, having confidence in doing what we do..
Having confidence shows that I'm an effective servant.
We all need a secret place in God that we can turn to.
A place that in times of downness, we can turn to, and rebuild our confidence in Him..

Do I have fear? Or do i have confidence?
Worldly busyness have kept me away, distracted me away.
I may seem to be busy with His work, His ministry, but has it really been His ministry or mine?
His glory or mine?
I need to draw away, I need to turn back to my quiet place... I need a place of solitude.. where I can rebuild my confidence in Him once again. I need to repent of my complacency...

Yesterday's CG message was about Knowing God, not knowing ABOUT God..
God, I want to come back to the place where I know you once more..
Not me, but You.. You and You alone... is what that will satisfy all my needs...
God, I Love You... and I need You....

Challenges prove that I'm still a daughter of God...
I thank God, that challenges are still all around me...
Devil is still fighting me, because I'm still a threat..
I will win, because God is with me...
I will win, because God is righteous..
I will win, because I'm a daughter of God...

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/19/2008 06:28:00 PM

Aww... after soo long. I'm back to playing the guit again today..
MMm... my current guitarist going back to her country and hence I gotta play again..for a month... sigh.. been so busy with so many things that i've not really been practising..

Sigh... but its always a good thing to be able to worship God with my talent...(whatever that is left..hehe..) Yeah.. its nice when u just strum the nice songs and worship.. in Spirit and in Truth.. hehe...

Yup.. now my fingers hurt... like crazy.. coz I havent been playing for a long long time.. How i wish someone else in the group can start playing and take over me... Ah well..
I dislike the stress of having to play the guit for CG.. haa....

CGL's here.. off to practice... tata!!

Pray for anointing tonite! :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/18/2008 07:53:00 PM

So says the TickleFactory.com timer on my blog..

Wooo..so exciting.. and I still need to work hard on slimming down and losing those ugly lumps of fats! Urgh..seems like metabolism rate has slowed down pretty much. Can't seem to lose weight as easily compared to when i was younger.. Awww.. am i that old?? :/

Yeah... Paid the deposit for ROM Venue, Banquet Venue and its some peaceful period for a short while before we go bonkers again.. $12,000 for the house and $1200 for Bridal Studio by mid Feb and end Feb respectively... Hohoho..
We serve a MIRACLE God, who does miracles no one has seen!
And I'm sure, He'll come true for us this time round! :)

God, I thank you in advance for the things that you are planning and providing for in our life! :)
Amen!

Yet then, feeling alittle funny, that my life will have to be changed in 3 months, 3 weeks and 3 days time... Hahahah.. it'll no longer be "I".. but "we".. not "me".. but "us"...

I guess thats how marriage works and how God puts 2 person together...
Its amazing how Love can come into people, and irrationally change their lives...
For the better, or for worse...
And that depends on what and how we make them out to be..
It doesnt happen with just one hand, but it takes both hands to clap, and similarly, for both hands and hearts to make it work..
It'll be too tiring if one party is putting the blame all the time, and the other party getting blamed..

There has to be understanding, mutual that is...
And communication.. which is the most powerful tool that can make or break a relationship.
It's not just physical time spent, but the quality of that time. So what if you are physically together for 2 hours, but nothing much spoken in that time?

Ahhh... i'm getting....philosophical? Hahah..
Nah.. I'm just wondering.. if I am sure what I am getting myself into....

*Mystery* *Unknown* *Challenge* *Sacrifice* *Love*

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/16/2008 03:10:00 AM

Oh man...
Some meeting coming up..and i gotta tabulate some figures...
Can't believe this is killing me..
Too long no do such things le... suddenly, I felt sooo helpless!!
Argh...
But it got better as i continue to do it.. and yayy!! I've finished it...
Praise the Lord for the patience.. kekeke...

Really felt like crying when i saw the figures initially man... Soooo many figures... but finally, managed to got it narrowed down to a few important figures to note and viola!!

I can go sleep le..
Gotta wake up for support tomorrow.. sigh....
*yawn*
Another long day...sianz.... got Verifier as well... gotta be home dunno what time...
And got training on Sunday... can't sleep late also..
Monday got monthly meeting...need to get up early as well..
Oh my God!!!

I need more rest, God!!!

And more money!! :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/12/2008 01:30:00 AM

Woohoo...
The Day is getting nearer... 234 has always been a special number to me since Secondary One.
Heh.. coz its my PSLE aggregate score.. Hahaha.. nice number rite? :P

Yah.. anyway... didnt really do anything much abt wedding these few days.. since most that needs to be done is done.. just waiting for all the money to come in, through some channel, one way or another, cash deposits into our accounts are welcomed anytime...
Always encouraged by my ex-CG member's testimony on how the day before they supposed to go place some $5000 deposit, the money just somehow appeared in their bank account. They were also amazed that they had that sum of money! God is GOOD! :)

Something happened few days back also. As i was withdrawing some cash from the POSB ATM, it showed balance $5024.xx...I was shocked for a moment. i was thinking.. did someone deposit $5000 into my account or wat?? But i was just withdrawing $40.. so i just pressed the continue button and when the balance remaining appeared later, it was back to the $1xx.xx amount.. Hahhaa.. I took out my card, and tried it again.. it was $1xx.xx... no more$5024.xx.. Chey!
I wonder... BB was saying.. should have just withdraw $5000! Hahaha... if only that amount was available.. hahaha.. but it was just in that split second i saw that amount.. I don't think my eyes were playing tricks on me.. but anyway... yah...

Deals are coming in..meeting a few people here and there and closing more cases.. Good! :)
Gotta keep on working hard, else gonna bleed to death come May and Sept!
God is Jehovah Jireh, my GOOD PROVIDER! He shall supply all of our needs according to HIS riches in HEAVEN!! :)

God, we need $20,000 CASH by Feb!!! :)
Drop from the sky, tell me where.. and I'll be there waiting.. (kekek..yah rite..)
Yeah... *knock knock* stop dreaming... *poke*
Start working hard!!!

More deals and more referrals and more cases please!! :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/11/2008 12:16:00 AM

In exactly another 4 months..
my life's gonna change to another stage...
Can't believe it.. buts its gonna be so exciting at the same time! :)

Thanks for the past 8 wonderful months BB! :)
Love ya! :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/10/2008 01:02:00 AM

Alright... met up with Merchant Court's Sales today.. and met up with Stefine too.
So I guess very likely we'll be holding our ROM at Swissotel Merchant Court's Poolside. :)
Finally, we are back to the original venue that we've wanted right from the start..
Hahah.. after a BIG BIG round, we are back to ground zero.

Hmm.. but at least better than nothing.. I still love the poolside. But due to the venue's availability and cost, we gotta cut cut cut down on the guest list for ROM.. Mmm...
Its almost $40/head inclusive of venue booking of $500++!!! :O

But its a nice place la.. Would still love My Secret Garden but then, they have a minimum of $3000 spending, which I think would not be wise la... spend so much... in then end, might make a huge loss!! :/

But for those who have the budget, I would definitely recommend the place.. well.. at least.. I have one of the most important event in my life there.. *wink* ;P

Yup... settled the Videography and Animation too.. Hee.. have always loved Stefine's work.
The 1st occasion was when I saw it at Ping Ping's wedding on 7th July 2007. It was simply awesome.. And I knew from that moment that I would want to have mine with them too! Heee..
Since its cheaper to have a bundle, we took their Animation with Videography... But still not cheap loh.. $2000++ bleah.. :X

Thank God at least for photography, we can save abit. My Cousin-in-law has just started on Wedding photography and when i asked if he could help us with it, he mentioned that he could do it for us FOC! Just need to give him an Ang Pow for appreciation will do!! So nice of him! Hehe.. He recently took for my another cousin and i felt that he was good!
What's more surprising was that it was his 1st attempt at taking wedding shots!
Heh.. initially thought that it was more impt on AD to get a professional PG, but then, since we are gonna spend so much on other stuffs already, and we are gonna spend so much on our Bridal Photoshoot, i think we can save on AD photos la.. hehe.. of coz we wont shortchange him la, will give him what he deserves... just pray that he'll do a great job for us. Have confidence in him!! :)

Yup.. more things settled... less stuffs to worry about... just money to think about..
But guess, will just trust God and trust in His providence! Amen!:)
Hahaa... our planning has mounted to almost $70,000 for the whole wedding inclusive of Banquet... if u ask me now, I've no slightest idea how the money is gonna come, but i believe that when the need arises, God'll provide.. Amen! :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/07/2008 11:21:00 PM

2nd January 2008, Wednesday

A day to remember.

Venue: My Secret Garden
Time: 7pm - 8:30pm

Program:
Dinner

Toilet break for me - was asked to go toilet.. funny rite?

Dessert - Bread and Butter Pudding - super nice! But forgot to take pics.. sigh.. $8++ for a 5cm by 5 cm size.. hehe..
We decided that it was not enough. Or rather, BB feels that its not satisfying enough, and so he suggested another dessert. There was one on the Menu we saw earlier.
Sin in Love - Heart Shaped Brownie with Ice Cream.
I was fine and so BB just showed a thumbs up to the server and he in turn thumbs up back.
Then the server started the preparation process 5 metres away from me...

Wondering/thinking something must be brewing... :/
So we waited patiently for the dessert to come...
The waiter put it on the table, and i was looking at the deco, wondering if I'll see anything like "Marry Me?" or something.. but no..... nothing close to it... some chocolate sauce drizzle only..
So I looked back to BB...

He: So how?
Me: How what?
He: look carefully..
Me: *look down again on the brownie...and gosh! A ring was sitting on the brownie!!*
Hehehe... too small la.. cannot see.. hiak hiak... :P
Me: Aren't you supposed to be kneeling down?
He: *knelt down* .............................................
Me:..........................................
He:...........................................
Me:..........................................
He:....................................
Me: yes....

hahahha.. for details... ask me la....
Then took some photos and ate up the nice brownie with ice cream! :)
Hehehe...

Its really a nice place... if you wanna have a secret dining, or dining with nice ambience.. do check out the place... ;)

-RacheL- blogged @ 1/03/2008 04:25:00 PM