On the other hand...
I'm suddenly brightened up! :)

I've just fulfilled my last BF by clicking on it!!
It's great to know that God, You've seen me through the toughest period of my life...
6 months... of struggling through hasn't been easy...
It really takes faith....

Substance of things hoped for, evidence of things unseen...

Yes Lord.. Thank You for seeing me through.

Brighter days are ahead.. and i know.. All things will work for good to those who loves You..

I Love You, Lord....

Thank You... :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/29/2007 12:57:00 AM

Maybe I've tried too hard....
We live in a democratic society and since when have we became autocratic?
Why do we make decisions for others?
Don't others have their own opinion?
When they don't want to, can't they say no?
And if they can, then why do we decide for them?
Can't we just "fulfill all righteousness" and just ask them?
I'm sure... if they feel negative, they'll say no...
At least.. we gave them a choice.
But when they are not even given a chance to express what may be what they want...
Is it fair to them??

Routines became routines..
Something that people used to enjoy doing... now no longer...
Routines has become a religious duty...
Something that I'm still excited about.. has become a chore to others...
Something that I look forward to... people has found it a bore....

Am i too rigid??
Am i too inflexible??
Am i not creative enough to sustain other's interests?
My heart totally crushed... when i heard something..........
When it's your project.. you do it with enthusiasm...
When it's not, do you lend your best support???

Does everyone else know what's happening to the once most happening group?
Don't you feel... we've all gone far apart???
Isn't there anything else that we can do to make it happen again???
Do we just want to see it tear apart???
It's already diluted.....
I don't want it to be this way.....

God.. it's your group... it's your people..
Bring us together once again....
Like we used to... and even better....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/29/2007 12:40:00 AM

How different priorities will lead people to make different decisions...

A: Once in a lifetime, even if i take part, I'll cancel it and go for it man!
B: whee~ cool and how could i miss this special day? count me in =))
C: Yupp.. i can go.. n of cOs i will go.. Wahaha... . how can we miss it...miss this once in a life tym event...
D: I can't attend. I'm in Parade Of School. I'm not sure which day is our performing date.
E: Really want to go.. but i am involved... got to see the schedule...
F: Gotta see how. Need to support a friend who's involved...

???????
I guess it just only shows how close we are to the party involved..
If its someone close to you, would you have not go for it??
There're people who can forsake all, just to be there...
And of coz... also people.. who chose not to be there because another person has a higher priority in their lives...
Isn't that true??
Hahaha... it doesnt really concern me... but... it really shows...
And i wonder.. when its my turn, who'll be there???
Do I matter to others??
Will anyone lay down their lives for me??
Will anyone forsake anything for me??
Ahhh.....

I'm thinking too much... haha.. go do my work...

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/28/2007 12:25:00 AM

I miss you....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/28/2007 12:22:00 AM

Hahhaha.. just before i was about to mug at the guit.. i received a sms frm my aunt!!

"Alice. why i buy U weekly still no see your face le.... =]"

Hahaha...weeks ago, just when my dad was hospitalised, i was busy with some makeover thingy as a favor for my friend and also to earn a free haircut.. Haha..
So it was supposed to be published.. but due to some technical fault.. and some other faults...
mine wont be published anyway.. haha.. which is good!! Paiseh la.. aiyo.. the whole Singapore will see it loh.. and i know.. now's not my prime size.. ahha..

In case.. u didnt know.. i put on pounds over the last 6 months...

Too much supper and what-nots if you ask me why... haha... Let u see the difference....


Do you see the difference or not?? Sigh... I cannot go on like this ah...

Someone liked this photo of mine....Taken 7 June 1999... Here it is.. :)
Hahhaha... too bad... i've grown old since then.. haha.. what's lost.. cannot be regained.. or gained back.. hahaha...

Ops.. CGL is here... byebye!!!

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/27/2007 07:24:00 PM

Oh... i saw an interesting post in mei's blog..

Below is just a little extract...

"Oh Eleanor dear, I love it when Frog calls me pig. Pigs are CUTE. Just like the one hanging off my pencil case. So be happy when skinhead calls you pig. Besides, I sleep a lot too! =)"

Haha...Somebody loves to call me pig too.. Hmm.. call what you like..
Just know that I am created by God.. if it pleases you... and it won't displease God.. go ahead! Bleah!!

Sounding like a real 14 year old now.. but.. who cares... I have my childhood too..
Hahaha... Child-like faith! Hahaha...

Yah.. back to more 'mugging' on the guit...
My finger hurts! *ouch*...

Need to have more regular practice le.. hur hur hur...

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/27/2007 07:19:00 PM

To be met or to be broken...
Hhmm.....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/27/2007 05:40:00 PM

Haha...

The lead is my cousin...hehe.. she's chio okie... though its rather blur here.. hee....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4owJxGbqJTE

Check it out.. :)


-RacheL- blogged @ 4/27/2007 02:24:00 AM

Didnt blog for a few days now...

Suddenly, a feeling of emo-ness swept over me...
Spent 2 days meeting 2 different persons for dinner.

Through our sharing with one another, its really amazing to remember God.
Remember how He saw me through the seasons of darkness, how He never give up on me..
Even when i gave up on myself. How God continued to bless me, protect me, loves me.
God is Good..

Indeed, Deut 8:18... And I shall remember the Lord my God, who gives me the power to get wealth!
Amen!

Then again, I'm full of regrets for taking bus...

The 1st time i tried to be adventurous some time back, i took bus 67 (if i remembered correctly) from SIM... to Eunos.. After 90minutes, i decided to get off the bus at Eunos.. and i walked back to my office at Paya Lebar. I reached office 2 hours later after i left SIM... bah!!!

The 2nd time, i tried to be thrifty.
Knowing that its the only bus available, i hopped onto 196.
Had checked through the bus guide... looks like many stops.. but dun look that long..
I wanted to go Clementi...
Guess what?? I boarded the bus at 6:20pm. When i got off at Clementi Interchange, which has shifted some distance away, it was 7:50pm. *vomit blood*

Am i just silly or what?? I don't understand why some people just love taking buses..
Why the buses i take... always take sooooooooo long??
And i could have alighted off somewhere... and take the train.
I wont be late and wont be delayed... Urgh!! ARgh!! Sigh!! Haiz!!!

Sigh.. another wave of emo-ness..
So many "I want to do"... but.. so many "I just can't do it.."
Not because i don't have the ability to do... but... "It's just not right to do it.."
God... show me Your Way!
I'm confused.......... I long to... but..... I want just Your Way......

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/27/2007 01:47:00 AM

Many times, we try too hard.
People don't appreciate what you do.
And they refuse to listen to you.

Many times, I've seen people fall away.
People who've left us.. left us...
People who chose to hand around, stick around are still around.
I wonder.. why people chose to go the other way..when they know..
that'll lead them to nowhere...

Many times, we know best, what we should be doing..
But.. we choose to do the opposite.. just because..
it seems to be the best choice at that point in time..

People are often tempted by what looks good...
And not be focused on what is good...
The path is straight..
The road is clear..
The choice is obvious...

Do what you deem is right...
And have no regrets...
It doesnt pay to be stubborn and remain stubborn...

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/24/2007 02:20:00 AM

falling sick.....
Yah man.. woke up to a funny accent when i talk. :/
I think...its due to a lack of water yesterday.
Was up since 5am.. went to Expo and left the place at about 5plus i think...
I think I only had a sip of water when i had my bee hoon...
Then i was in the far far end of expo where nobody would have noticed me..
Hahhaa.. one of the loneliest duty i ever had....
KLKK-ing most of the time... talking to my kind door ushers, walking around and wondering what i can do next and how i can be more 'useful' than just standing there and literally doing NOTHING!
Urgh.. kill me! I rather be at Bravo 1! hahaha...
I was listening to the set though... observing what is happening at MY bravo 1. Hahha..
When you have been at the same position for 6 weeks, almost consecutively and knowing exactly what to do, hahaa... the position almost becomes yours. Hehee...
Only the people that you have... and the congregation that you'll face will probably impose different challenges but other than that.. i like the feeling of knowing what i have to do and how i can do it well. Technical stuffs.. i think i'm quite ok le... its just the managing of the people that's with me and the unseen forces that i have to deal with.. ahha...

Hmmmm.... hopefully, I've been a good help to some who needed it.. :)

Yah.. my nose is a little runny.. Hhmm... need to drink more water today... yah...
A little sleepy..though I've slept quite a bit today.. Hmmm..

Gonna finish up the rest of my stuffs.. and I'm going go visit Bel later le.. yup... :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/23/2007 03:46:00 PM

You Are An ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to achieve them. You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

MMmm.... I'm still a Guardian.. haha.. :)
Hahha.. Yesh... I think i can be a detective..
I'm soo good with details and I've got superb memory that people always cant bluff me off..
I'm too observant so as to say... that... i noticed most of the changes that takes place, if not all.
Hahah... I can almost analyse the whole situations and decipher what's happening and what's going to happen.. and i can piece up bits and pieces of stories together to get a BIG picture of the whole story.. ain't i good or what?? hahahha.. :P

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/23/2007 12:18:00 AM

Your Life is 65% Perfect

Your life is pretty darn perfect. You don't have much to complain about. Of course, your life is occasionally less than perfect. But you're usually too happy to notice.

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/21/2007 02:31:00 AM

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you. And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/21/2007 02:27:00 AM

Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory

You want to have your cake... and everyone else's. Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

Mmmm.. this one like not so accurate... hahaa.. dun seem like what i want.. haha..

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/21/2007 02:26:00 AM

You Are Fairly Skeptical

You're not the type of person who will fall for anything... But you do keep your mind open to all sorts of possibilities. You figure that anything could be true. After all, the world is a strange place. However, you're going to need some convincing before you can believe in aliens or reincarnation!

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/21/2007 02:20:00 AM

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

Is this just so accurate or what??????
Faint all over.. wahhahaha....
I often organise them... wahhahaha....
Just 3 questions..and it says all about me.. whahaha..
Cool!

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/21/2007 02:10:00 AM

Jesus Christ sits at the right hand of the throne of God.

Because He reigns, I reign.

He rules, I rule.

I'm in Him. He's in me.

He rules over sickness and disease. I rule over sickness and disease.

He rules over the devil. I rule over the devil.

I act in His Name.

His power is the same as it ever was! And His power resides in me.

__________________________________

Amen!!

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/20/2007 12:06:00 AM

But alive in Your hands...

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/19/2007 11:14:00 PM

Looking through many blogs today...
And I realised that many were blogging about Benny Hinn..
What they experienced, received and what they saw....
Felt a little ashamed.. the 1st thing i blogged after 3 services, was how things went the wrong way..
Yah...and that was indeed how i felt....

But I cant deny, putting aside all my emotions, the 3 services were really good.
Went with great expectancy and especially after hearing all that was mentioned during Sat service, I was all prepared and ready to receive from God on Sunday.
Left home early, bought chicken rice, char siew rice and drinks for my team and section.
I didnt buy alot la.. but definitely more than enough for my team..and a few others..
Left home in a great mood, wanted to bless my darlings and others...

1st thing that happened after I got all the food - tpt was delayed.. person I'm meeting is late again, after umpteen reminders NOT TO BE LATE.
I waited for 15min... and ended up, was slightly 'later' than my reporting time. Sigh.... :(

2nd thing that happened... more people were late. Yah.. some were early.. but.. I just cant stand it when people dont reply and respond to sms-es. Yes I agree that some sms-es dont require reply.. To me.. I'm fine if you don't reply and still get things done. But I can't stand it when you dont reply and things dont get done.
No reply can means... you didnt receive the sms and hence I can't blame you for not getting it done.
But if you receive the sms and still dont get it done, it shows that you don't understand what was required or you forgot (which means you didnt take me seriously) all about it...
And if you receive the sms, replied and still don't get it done... then... i really dont understand why it still happened.
Of coz.. I'm not unreasonable... if things didnt happen for a valid reason, I can accept it and understand it... But.. if u know that u need to do certain thing.... and u didnt reply and u realised that you are not able to make it... wont u at least inform the person that due to whatever circumstances, you wont be able to make it... --> This is called accountability!

Isn't it just rude to not reply to what is required and not even inform when you can't fulfill it?
It just shows our attitude towards things.

When i receive any sms that doesnt require reply, at least I will ensure it gets done.
In the event that I'm not able to, I'll always inform..
And for that matter, if I'm going to be late.. even if its just 5-10minutes.. I will inform that I will be late or i MIGHT be late...and provide a reason why I'm late.

It doesnt reflect good when my leader start to call me and ask me where i am.
All leaders expect us to be early or at least on time. When we dont inform, our leaders just wonder how come we are not where we are supposed to be at the specific time.
When we inform, at least our leaders know what time we will reach and if they need us to help with anything, they can plan for us. It doesnt reflect good of our leaders when they tell others that we'll be on time... and turn out, we are late.
Leaders have faith and trust in us. Our actions and attitudes builds up the trust and faith our leaders have in us. If we perpetually fail our leader, do you think they'll trust us to do anything well again in future?

One good and great day that started fantastic...was all gone... because of some tiny issues...
Yes.. it was a tiny issue or could be catergorized as one.

Some may say I over-reacted.
But do you see where I'm coming from?

I questioned my own leadership. I questioned myself.
Maybe I'm not good enough.
Maybe I'm too emotional.
Maybe I'm just over-sensitive.
Maybe I'm unreasonable.
Or maybe,
Its just the devil...


Still... it was a lesson learnt.. I shall try to be more gracious... or maybe... i shouldn't care at all?
But that is not what i want!!!

I dont want to be just an administrator.
I want to be a people-transformer. I want to impact lives and build up people.
I want to lead people to higher destiny!

And that will happen, only.. only.. only... if they are willing to allow me to.....because I know... God has given His permission... because He had placed me where i am....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/17/2007 01:17:00 PM

Yah..snapped again..

Sigh.. not that i want it... but.. well..things do happen...
All the time... just.... accept it....

Many thoughts... many things going through..
So much so that i dunno how to pen it down...
Was thinking what i can blog about when i was bathing...
There're so many things...
I think it'll take me a few days and nights to blog it out...

Sigh... But something i just received from email.. probably can best express what i feel...

_________________________________________

The longer I live, the more I am amazed over the simplicity of life. Now I am not suggesting that life is always simple; far from it. In fact, life can become downright complicated if allowed to do so. But the recipe for a fulfilling and rewarding lifetime IS relatively simple. Living a fantastic life filled with good times and even better memories has a great deal to do with the space between our ears and very little to do with outside factors, fate or circumstance.

Oh sure, we can allow the pressures, problems and predicaments that we face daily to rock our boat or even toss us overboard. That's the easy thing to do. Not always simple, but easy. By giving in or giving up, we can then blame the butcher, the baker and the candlestick maker for everything that's gone wrong in our lives. Pointing the finger in every direction but ours may make us feel better for a few moments, but does that fruitless exercise in futility ever get us anywhere worthwhile? You know the answer.

-Buckminster Fuller

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/16/2007 01:35:00 AM

Woah... it's been a long long long time since i stood for sooooo long...
And.. my legs are really killing me....
They're really soooooooooo sng.. they can almost break anytime man....

Gonna have a real good rest.. and sleep well well... then tmr....
Gonna fight a tough battle...believing for greater miracles to take place tmr.. and I know.. Miracles are taking place!!!!!
Is fat loss also a miracle?? May it come upon the women who desire to be set free in this area!!
Yip yip Hurray!! :P

Got scolded by someone for nothing man... More of like... being screamed at...(nono.. it's not who you are thinking... it's someone else... )
But well.. he apologized in the end.. so.. all things end well... shall not take it to heart..
Like 80 says... this week...we'll sure see all sorts of people's hair stand.. or people who cause other people's hair to stand.. hahaa....

At least.. he's a gentleman.. hahaa...

Saw the woman.. who asked me to align chair loh... she served in my terrace!!!!!!!!!
Sigh.. initially.. i really dunno how to talk to her man... she soooooooo...........
But well... i took the step to talk to her in the end... and... she responded la... BUT...
I called her by her name! So now she knows... I know who she is!!!!!!!!! Bleah...
Don't try to bully me ah... My Father in Heaven, will write it down one...
Ask me to take ruler measure and align chairs myself.. cool!
God'll build 2 more swimming pools for me... hahahhaha.....

Time to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................ :)

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/14/2007 02:34:00 AM

As we get larger, we must get larger.

It's impossible to run a large organisation like a small one.

Bigger groups attract bigger people.

We have to become bigger people to handle bigger people.

Enlargement means - I get more generous;

I widen my acceptance of others; I'm more merciful;

I plan bigger, longer, grander plans; I stretch!

I cope with more.

I have more patience, greater love, stronger joy, firmer purpose.

I enlarge!

__________________________________

Once again... a timely reminder...

I need to enlarge!!!

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/12/2007 01:14:00 AM

Notice the calendar on the right?? Cool rite??
Wah seh.. hehe...
If we implement this on our Section's blog.. will be so cool loh.. hehehe.. :)

Mmmm... waiting for approval first.. kekeke... nice nice..
I already thought of how to put it le... hahaha.. nice nice..

Yeah... idea came from 4S2's blog la... credit to Eugene Wong.. who's also my CG member loh.. Kudos!! Heee..

Yeah.. I'm going to sleep le.. appt later. yeah. panda eyes.. haha...

ZZZZzzzzzzz..............

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/11/2007 03:51:00 AM

80 warned us of this weeks ago..
And yeah... how true... hahaa..
You see how people work and performs...
And people who may be nice may become a monster...
and people who may seem fierce may turn into a kind soul....

Well.. saw how biased people can be as well...and how some people can be so impartial and still stand up for what is right... Some people just simply protects and defend and hide... and blame it on another person.. haiz..... :/
I thank God for my SL.... simply love ya! :D

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/10/2007 01:27:00 AM

You Communicate Like a Man

When you communicate, you like to get to the point. You're not afraid to say what's on your mind - and leave it at that. Talking about your emotions drains you. You rather keep them to yourself. You prefer solving problems to wallowing in your sorrows.

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/10/2007 12:46:00 AM

Yup! The long awaited exciting dinner is here.. and its gone..
How fast.. .all the fuss about it.. hhaa...
Yep.. so we had our make up and hair done in office! :P

And made our way down to Swissotel Raffles at about 7pm.. :)

Dinner was not bad... Mmm.. pity.. Jus and me felt a little out.. haha.. yeah...
But it was a good experience still..some push for motivation...
None of us were up on stage.. and we are encouraging ourselves to work harder this year..and strive to be part of the recipient next year! Hahaha.. :)

Not easy.. but we gotta really encourage one another and push harder!! :D

We left early... and I took the train home.. Nat waited for me at City Hall Mrt and at least.. i had some company... hehe.. thanks Nat.. :)
Yah.. and she saw the pretty me... hehe... yeah.. i think i looked real nice.. don't you think so?? hahahha.... :)

Here's some pic for u.. :)



-RacheL- blogged @ 4/05/2007 01:29:00 AM

Woo hoo...

Tomorrow's the day!! Wah...
So fast.. The last time I was there.. i think it was 2004??
I didnt make it to 2006..coz W204 CG...
I didnt make it to 2005... coz W352 CG...
Wooohoo...
Finally i can be there again.. Mmm.. though... not by my own achievements.. its okie..
2008 I shall make it there myself!! Yeah!! :D

Haha... Looking forward to great food and great speaker!
Last year... we had SM Lee as the Guest of Honor leh... but too bad.. I had CG then.. gotta missed it..
Hheee.. glad that this year.. its on a Tuesday.. then i can go without worry...
MMmmm..... but... hole in pocket got bigger...
Bleah... wanted to wear an old gown... worn since 2003... but... Mum can't stand the color and design and the way it hangs on me... so.... yah.. went Northpoint earlier...
Suddenly saw this shop... which I havent been patronising for a long long while... walked in...saw something interesting.. not that interesting.. but at least.. nice... yah..so... tried... then...
Mum paid... bleah..
She said.."Lend you only... "
Got a pair of shoes to go with it too... my shoes...all cannot make it le... one pair broke last Thur somemore.. sigh......
I need more moolah...... finally... one more month to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God, i'm looking forward to my blessings!!! Yay!!!!

Mum is cute... after all the shopping.... she can tell me...
Dress + shoes = $202...
Plus the dinner we had... you owe me $209......
me: faint....

hahaha.... yah... after i get my pay!!!!

One more month!!!!!!!! :/

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/02/2007 08:35:00 PM