Looking through many blogs today...
And I realised that many were blogging about Benny Hinn..
What they experienced, received and what they saw....
Felt a little ashamed.. the 1st thing i blogged after 3 services, was how things went the wrong way..
Yah...and that was indeed how i felt....

But I cant deny, putting aside all my emotions, the 3 services were really good.
Went with great expectancy and especially after hearing all that was mentioned during Sat service, I was all prepared and ready to receive from God on Sunday.
Left home early, bought chicken rice, char siew rice and drinks for my team and section.
I didnt buy alot la.. but definitely more than enough for my team..and a few others..
Left home in a great mood, wanted to bless my darlings and others...

1st thing that happened after I got all the food - tpt was delayed.. person I'm meeting is late again, after umpteen reminders NOT TO BE LATE.
I waited for 15min... and ended up, was slightly 'later' than my reporting time. Sigh.... :(

2nd thing that happened... more people were late. Yah.. some were early.. but.. I just cant stand it when people dont reply and respond to sms-es. Yes I agree that some sms-es dont require reply.. To me.. I'm fine if you don't reply and still get things done. But I can't stand it when you dont reply and things dont get done.
No reply can means... you didnt receive the sms and hence I can't blame you for not getting it done.
But if you receive the sms and still dont get it done, it shows that you don't understand what was required or you forgot (which means you didnt take me seriously) all about it...
And if you receive the sms, replied and still don't get it done... then... i really dont understand why it still happened.
Of coz.. I'm not unreasonable... if things didnt happen for a valid reason, I can accept it and understand it... But.. if u know that u need to do certain thing.... and u didnt reply and u realised that you are not able to make it... wont u at least inform the person that due to whatever circumstances, you wont be able to make it... --> This is called accountability!

Isn't it just rude to not reply to what is required and not even inform when you can't fulfill it?
It just shows our attitude towards things.

When i receive any sms that doesnt require reply, at least I will ensure it gets done.
In the event that I'm not able to, I'll always inform..
And for that matter, if I'm going to be late.. even if its just 5-10minutes.. I will inform that I will be late or i MIGHT be late...and provide a reason why I'm late.

It doesnt reflect good when my leader start to call me and ask me where i am.
All leaders expect us to be early or at least on time. When we dont inform, our leaders just wonder how come we are not where we are supposed to be at the specific time.
When we inform, at least our leaders know what time we will reach and if they need us to help with anything, they can plan for us. It doesnt reflect good of our leaders when they tell others that we'll be on time... and turn out, we are late.
Leaders have faith and trust in us. Our actions and attitudes builds up the trust and faith our leaders have in us. If we perpetually fail our leader, do you think they'll trust us to do anything well again in future?

One good and great day that started fantastic...was all gone... because of some tiny issues...
Yes.. it was a tiny issue or could be catergorized as one.

Some may say I over-reacted.
But do you see where I'm coming from?

I questioned my own leadership. I questioned myself.
Maybe I'm not good enough.
Maybe I'm too emotional.
Maybe I'm just over-sensitive.
Maybe I'm unreasonable.
Or maybe,
Its just the devil...


Still... it was a lesson learnt.. I shall try to be more gracious... or maybe... i shouldn't care at all?
But that is not what i want!!!

I dont want to be just an administrator.
I want to be a people-transformer. I want to impact lives and build up people.
I want to lead people to higher destiny!

And that will happen, only.. only.. only... if they are willing to allow me to.....because I know... God has given His permission... because He had placed me where i am....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/17/2007 01:17:00 PM