And I'm sooo tired...and not happy at all..

Sianz.....

And this is wearing both of us down...
Can we just call it off???
There's no way i can see what i need coming in...
And we are both sooo stressed to make the most wonderful wedding happen...

He says he give up... and i hope i can just do so too...
but its just not coming in as much and as fast as we need it to...

How to have faith?? I have lost most of it...
Looking at the budget list.. i really feel like its impossible...
And I just pray...that the reno loan will be approved....
Else... we can just move into an empty house in 4 months time...

We have a house.. but nothing inside... coz we do not have the means for the things to be inside...
Half placed deposits all over the place.....
Waiting for doomsday i feel.....

the day.. maybe companies will sue us for cheating.. for not paying them....for delaying....
but i really hope not...

but where's it coming from??

i have no idea..and i dun wanna think...

how i wish i can just sleep and wake up to see my bank full of money......

if only.......

i'm suffocating.. and i'm finding it harder to breathe.....

-RacheL- blogged @ 4/22/2008 09:57:00 PM